Friday, November 20, 2009

Day Sixty-One..Trying To Fit It All In


I have not been able to blog because my kids have kept me really busy. I guess I shouldn't complain, but I really missed writing. It's hard to juggle my days sometimes and I was a bit resentful yesterday when my son volunteered me to get supplies for their school project. I had a car full of boys in the car. I had to get them home, write in my blog and leave for a Stop Cancer awards dinner. Doctors were receiving grants for their ongoing research for all types of cancers. I didn't have time to go to get supplies. I threw a minor tantrum, got the supplies anyways and got my frozen yogurt for after the awards dinner. I just didn't get to blog. The thing that I have to remember is that the boys are having their pals come to our house. I get to hear about their days, listen to what's going on at school. I kind of feel like I am a fly on the wall!!! I was thrown a curve ball and I didn't handle it in the best way.

It's amazing on what is happening to find cures for cancers. These incredible doctors ( both men and women) are devoted to finding cures, prolonging lives and ultimately trying to have higher survival rates for all cancers. I was able to sit at dinner with a leading doctor who is a specialist in breast cancer. He developed a medicine that is apart of many women's protocol for breast cancer. I asked him about my hormone therapy. He didn't like the idea that I was on it. No big surprise to me. He gave me a name of a doctor who could give me alternatives to taking hormones. I have to investigate. If I could feel sane and not be on hormones..then I will do it. The key here is sanity. I don't want to be the insane wife and mommy that I was without hormones. Menopause is a bitch (at least it was for me) and I can't let that define me. I don't like being a super bitch. I got this twinge of fear that I might get cancer again if I stay on estrogen. It didn't feel good. I haven't felt that way in a very long time. I want to be there for my kids. I want to see them graduate college, get married and have kids. I want to be apart of it all. I just want to be graceful about it. No hormones equals erratic behavior for me. I am hoping that there is a different solution so I can have it life..and peace.

Why listen to Wolffie? Because I get it. I can't tell you how happy I am that my girl is back for Thanksgiving break!!! There is FEMALE energy back in our house. Yipeeeeee!! Don't get me wrong..I love all my guys. They bring laughter, noise, bickering and fun to our household. Lets just say they are a lively bunch!!! They make me want to duck out from time to time and meet my girlfriends for a 5:00 Cup o Joe. Today was a perfect day in the life of having a daughter. We went to the 10:00 am showing of New Moon. There must have been 4 previews of chick flicks that my girl and I wanted to see. All we had to do is lock eyes to know that we were going to see the movies together. Words weren't necessary. We loved the movie. It was a chick flick to the max. Romance, passion. tension, some laughs, beautiful scenery and cute clothes. I can't forget to mention bare chests can I?!? After the movie, we went to our favorite local healthy restaurant. We ran into people, schmoozed a bit and then went shopping!!! We didn't get anything, but we went shopping at a girlie store!!! I am sighing with complete satisfaction right now. Tonight we are going to a play, Beauty and the Beast at our local high school. What a difference a day makes!!!!

Can you relate?

More will be revealed. Please come back for more.

Signing off until we meet again.

In Love and Peace,


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