Today was a tough day. I knew it was not going to be an easy day..and I was right. Due to our insurance going up, we had to leave our PPO and join Kaiser. I have to say that I have been pleasantly happy with my care..but it doesn’t make it any easier to break ties with long time doctors. It is what it is. You do what you gotta do.
Fashion is an extension of who I am at any given moment or experience.
It dawned on me a few minutes ago that my outfit was an unconscious pick for the day...Camo pants, white tennis shoes and a white button down. Cute right? The Camo pants are for the warrior in me. The white tennis shoes with studs and a heart are for my rebellion and to remember to love myself on a not so easy day. The white shirt was for walking in to meet my new doctor with a pure mind..without preconception. I often will dress for my mood. A bit sexy when we are going to a party, sweats and a oversized tee when I am hanging out on a rainy day, and my staple; ripped jeans and a cute top or sweater (with or without a leather jacket) when I am having a no fuss day.
Why listen to Wolfie? Because I get it. As some of you know, I had breast cancer almost
18 years ago. I have had my oncologist for 17 of my 18 years. I adore him. As a doctor, I trust him. He has become a confidant and a trusted friend. We don’t socialize outside of his office, but he has become a person I can lean on, tell my concerns about life and laugh with. We talk about what is new in our lives, about our families and how great it is to be further away from cancer. He is a diamond in the rough. I am going to miss him terribly. So today, with Camo pants on, my studded and heart tennis shoes and my white button down..I shed a few tears as I walked into meet my new doctor. It was Okay. She is kind and sensitive and really heard me. I walked out of Kaiser..tears rolling down my face. I took a deep breath in, wiped my tears away and grew up. As my mother in law so poetically says...Onward.
Can you relate? More will be revealed.
Signing off until we met again. Please come back for more.
In Love and Peace,
H&M White Button Down Shirt
Zadig and Voltaire Tennis Shoes
Bobbie Brown Eyewear
Necklace is my mom and dad’s wedding rings