A Hard Day...

Today was a tough day.  I knew it was not going to be an easy day..and I was right.  Due to our insurance going up, we had to leave our PPO and join Kaiser.  I have to say that I have been pleasantly happy with my care..but it doesn’t make it any easier to break ties with long time doctors.  It is what it is. You do what you gotta do.

Fashion is an extension of who I am at any given moment or experience.

It dawned on me a few minutes ago that my outfit was an unconscious pick for the day...Camo pants, white tennis shoes and a white button down.  Cute right?  The Camo pants are for the warrior in me.  The white tennis shoes with studs and a heart are for my rebellion and to remember to love myself on a not so easy day.  The white shirt was for walking in to meet my new doctor with a pure mind..without preconception.  I often will dress for my mood.  A bit sexy when we are going to a party, sweats and a oversized tee when I am hanging out on a rainy day, and my staple; ripped jeans and a cute top or sweater (with or without a leather jacket) when I am having a no fuss day.

Why listen to Wolfie?  Because I get it.  As some of you know, I had breast cancer almost

18 years ago.  I have had my oncologist for 17 of my 18 years.  I adore him. As a doctor, I trust him. He has become a confidant and a trusted friend.  We don’t socialize outside of his office, but he has become a person I can lean on, tell my concerns about life and laugh with.  We talk about what is new in our lives, about our families  and how great it is to be further away from cancer.  He is a diamond in the rough. I am going to miss him terribly.  So today, with Camo pants on, my studded and heart tennis shoes and my white button down..I shed a few tears as I walked into meet my new doctor.  It was Okay.  She is kind and sensitive and really heard me.  I walked out of Kaiser..tears rolling down my face.  I took a deep breath in, wiped my tears  away and grew up.  As my mother in law so poetically says...Onward.

Can you relate?  More will be revealed.

Signing off until we met again.  Please come back for more.

In Love and Peace,

Wolffie 

Wolffie is wearing:          

Hudson Camos

H&M White Button Down Shirt

Zadig and Voltaire Tennis Shoes

Bobbie Brown Eyewear

Necklace is my mom and dad’s wedding rings

Layers

I have come to realize that life is full of layers.  Whether it be how you cut your hair, how you dress, or how you uncover and discover the meaning of your life..it definitely has layers.

As cliche as that sounds..it is true.  For example...I have been trying to grow out my hair from a very short hairdo..I want to cut it because my layers just are not working right now.  BUT, haircuts and life are not about immediate gratification.  Life is one day at a time. Hair takes forever to grow. Impatience is a nuisance...when my inner thoughts turn to ramble and negativity..I am screwed.  Cut your damn hair.  You look ugly.  Need I go on?  My inner voice sometimes speaks bullshit. It's my worse critic.

I have a shoulder injury.  It’s been 2 1/2 months and I have a while to go.  I don’t sleep..I don’t exercise..and I am a bit in the dumps.  I have put on some poundage.  It doesn’t feel good..Now is the time that  I appreciate layers!!  I can wear a skinny jean, a loose shirt and a awesome velvet duster and feel okay.  It hides the middle.  No harm  No foul. Just a funky look. Still a fashionista!!


Why listen to Wolffie?  Because I get it. The layers that have been cultivating for years are my emotional layers.  It’s crazy how I still am peeling off events and feelings that have been stuck on me. It’s liberating to peel them off.  It brings me closer to my truth.

 Life is fabulous.  Life is messy.  Sometimes I hide behind a hairstyle or fashion so I don’t have to deal with the real deal..which is me and my ever so complicated head.  I am so thankful that I found meditation.  It calms my thoughts and lets be know that it’s okay to have layers.  Don’t fight them..just peel em off so I can enjoy the finer things in life..my hubby, my kids, my friends and my self expression.  No matter where I am..that’s right where I am supposed to be.

Can you relate?  More will be revealed.

Signing off until we meet again.  Please come back for more.

In Love and Peace,

Wolffie

Today Wolffie is wearing:
Rag and Bone Jeans
Vince Top
Freepeople Duster
Chanel Espadrilles
Kaura Jewels Warrior Bracelet